the Endless Cycle refers to the cycle of falling in love and then breaking up and then going through the whole entire cycle again...of being single, finding someone, getting closer to them, falling in love with them, realizing for some reason or another it isn't or wont work....and then going through the break-up period.

The first few stages of this dreadful cycle are wonderful. Once you initially find someone...your whole world is basically "rocked". Everything is more beautiful, life is more meaningful...the person in general is much happier. Sigh...if only the cycle could end here. But no...there's always those howevers, and buts in life.

My friends...i too have gone through this cycle and now I am at the final stage...the break-up stage. The stage where I am now left empty without the person...

Let me briefly explain the first few stages of my story. I, after being single for a loooong time met a wonderful man who was genuinely kind and very special. We innocently started it off by going on friendly excursions; such as to the movies, and dinner. However, one thing led to another and he started to mean more to me. I started to plan my day around him and when i would get to talk to him or hang out with him again. haha...See in this cycle there isn't a bad guy...he was always honest with me about how much this wouldnt work out since he is a few years older then me. But stupid me wanted to live in the now and enjoy whatever time I would have (future me is suffering).

So that brings us to today....after a few months of getting closer the time came where we had to part our own ways. Now my very horribly thought out plan is to go 22 days cold turkey without talking to him or meeting him. My logic behind this plan is that...well it takes someone 22 days to form a habit. So if I can go 22 days without talking to him I should get into the habit of not having him around. Why will this work for me and not every other single person out there going through a break-up. Well first of all the guy was never really mine to begin with...he never courted me or made me feel like we would ever be together....so I don't have anything to fall back on.

That takes me to my first day of my 22 day break-up period.

Day 1:

watched a lot of tv...played games with kibby online. Woke up late, showered even later...ate lots of yummy food. Only cried once...looked at my phone with the hopeful feeling of getting a text etc. :( its ok 21 more days...

to do i have to take the gre's and apply for dental assisting and masters....

this week i have work, help at the stores, study, and rakhi


Its so funny....every break-up no matter how old one gets it feels very similar to others. you think that you would have learned...but when it happens again it hurts just as much as the last one.

I thought about him constantly today....I wondered what he was up to...how he was doing....if he liked his birthday present...what he ate...hahaha.

But i think in order to successfully go through a break-up you need to NOT think about all the good times and start to focus on the serious issues that would upset you. And trust me this guy was no where to being perfect. Sigh...ok DAY 1 is almost done....I finally can't wait until the workweek starts...(never thought i would say that) i just want to stay busy.

hey,

ok so i dont know why Greenlight isn't more popular. I hear bang bang pow atleast 40 times a day on the radio..but i dont even hear greenlight once. whats up with that yo.

i can't wait until finals are over! god..i just want the semester to be donneeee...i need a vacation. just three more weeks! yay. i screwed up my sleeping pattern :( bummer

i'm obsessed with: FML, 100 calorie pack snacks, shopping duh, gmail, office

omg i love the office...ok i'm kinda tired. ttyl yooo